ramblings.

2011-07-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

好久没更新博客了，突然心血来潮想写些什么。。哈哈哈。。O(∩_∩)O
最近都是一直在忙着工作和跟宝贝出门逛街看电影~ 这个礼拜我们好像看了蛮多部得。。 The Green Lantern 和 Mr Popper's Penguins 再加上 Transformers 3 嘻嘻。。。
然后最近这个傻瓜又病倒了。。唉哟真担心他。。刚刚星期五陪了他去看医生。。给了他一大堆药吃，还MC 2天！！！幸好他1天后就好啦！ ^^
下个拜2应该会和宝贝一起出JB。。这是我第一次呢真期待喔~~~~ ^^v
要去见周公啦，明天还要上班~~~bb!

2011-05-19T08:21:00.001-07:00

HELLO YELLO this is just a quick update, cos i've decided that my blog is too dead to be revived again =P i shall only post whenever i feel like~~~~
hmmmm last post was in feb? LOLS. too much stuffs to update, i don't know where to start.
let's just say that i'm enjoying my life now ^^v
finals are over and so is uni year 1! yeah! (:
went kite-flying at marina barrage with LOVE on tuesday~ hahaa our smiley face kite is so cute ttm! ^.^!!
fastFIVE was good! so many more movies that i wanna watch~~~~ i need to earn money, AND QUICK!

2011-02-10T12:28:00.001-08:00

ohgosh. can't believe i've totally neglected my blog for more than ONE MONTH! hahaha. doesn't feel thaat long since i last blogged. ohwells.
the reason why i decide to blog now, at 4.28am such an unearthly hour, is that today (or rather, yesterday) was really a day worth remembering =) i want to make sure that it's being written down and kept somewhere so that i'll never forget. heeehee.
baby bought for me a couple ring today as a pre-vday present! heeheee idk why but when he helped me put it on i really felt very happy and xingfu ^_^ maybe because this is the first time that a guy actually gave me a ring. haha. but yeah, love it very very much! the design is very exquisite, silver with an inner gold layer that slightly protrudes out, and a rose diamond in the middle. (i have doubts about the quality of the diamond though, but nvm it's good enough :) ) looks classy and elegant, yet simple x) loveit~
tomorrow would be our 5 months already. time passes so fast, honestly it really didn't feel so long. maybe cos when we just got together there were really many problems which surfaced, especially regarding his ex.. but i'm glad that we managed to pull through those times and that i didn't give up.. there were times when i really really felt so tired that i wondered if it was worth it to hold on, but i must say that i never regretted my decision(:
iloveu baby =) can't wait for monday to come, our first vday celebration together ^^

2011-01-01T02:04:00.000-08:00

昨晚好开心哦我~~~和baby一起在city hall倒数看烟花...feel so 幸福:)
was out the whole night and only reached home this morning at 11am LOL! shiok ttm x)
ilu(:

2010-12-18T08:50:00.001-08:00

i miss miss misssss baby so muchhhhhh la zomg... T.T
just now was late abit in meeting him during his break for PONTIAN (yummy!^^) haiz, lesser time to spend with him :( but i'm so happy to see him after exam, even for awhileeee only hehe. and he's damnnn sweet x100000 hahaha. cos in the cargo lift got like a few other people then he's supposed to go up to the 4th level cos i think he overshot his break time alr.. but he actually pei me go up all the way to lvl 8 cos there's this bangla who is going out at lv 6 den he scared the bangla will like rape me or wdv haha... damn sweeeett =)))
anyway.. exams have been so-so lor up till now.. officially halfway through but then again, i only have 4 papers... super sian la... everytime exam period i study very hard until halfway den really feel like giving up already :( lack of motivation to carry on haizzzz~~~ alrightttz back to FM. which i haven't really started practising at all until NOW NOW NOWWWW. 2 days before finals. eh wait, actually no. is 1 day before! AH FMLLLL!

2010-12-08T21:31:00.000-08:00

EXAMS COMINGGGGG! SO MEGA EFFING STRESSED >.<
sometimes i wonder what is the point of studying sooo hard for a stupid paper when you know very well that at this point in life, studying hard DEFINITELY DOES NOT EQUATE TO SCORING WELL.
oh wells...
i have to endure endure endure! won't be seeing baby for the next 12 days! =( will miss him sooooo much arghhs.
hope this period ends quickly, can't wait to celebrate CHRISTMAS with baby! =))

2010-11-21T12:21:00.000-08:00

我，对你重要吗？到底有多重要？突然好想好想知道。。。
因为我知道，你对我很重要很重要~~
虽然我知道你工作很忙，我真的有学着去体谅你了。。我没要求你每分每刻都呆在手机旁，一收到我的简讯就立刻恢复我，我也没要求你放吃饭的时候一定要发简讯给我告诉我你吃饱了让我没那么担心你饿着肚子。。我也没要求你放工后告诉我今天又多累或多忙或有什么开心事情发生。。你放工后我上线了也没要求你一定要和我聊天，因为我知道你想打游戏。。你打完游戏了我也没要求你来找我，因为我知道你打完游戏就会去pps看戏。。有时等到你看完戏后真的好累了。。但我就是每晚都坚持等，为了只是想听到你的声音。。和你聊聊天。。哪怕只是几十分钟我都很开心很满足了。。不想和你说这些。。因为我怕你会说我太依赖你。。我想给你有自己的生活空间也是。。只是。。。有时。。我真的是忍不住好想你好想你哦~~~~~~~ x(

2010-11-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

can't wait for wednesday! it's baby's PAYDAY hohoho going out gai gai wheee ^_^ i miss that pig so much...
MEGAMIND last night with chocolate and sy. funny show hehe and kind of touching. wanted to surprise baby with his fav JIN GUA PAI GU rice but he sms-ed me before that. learnt of a news which made me kinda unhappy but ohwells. >< being able to see him ytd, 我已经很满足了... to speak of the truth, i really really HATE to see him upset :( especially over certain things like ___. i don't know, maybe i'm too over-protective but seeing him upset really makes me feel 28947894578934 times worse =/ i'm just glad that i am able to be by his side when he's down.. maybe i am stupid but seeing him happy is really important to me, more than anything else. i really trust him and treasure him, sometimes i can't help but wonder if he feels that way too.
idk. i really don't know >.<
i like it when he hugs me tight and tells me that everything is gonna be alright. but at the same time, i can't help but feel just a TINY bit insecure. i'm sorry baby, that's because i love you too much.

我还记得以前我们还是朋友的时候，你对我好体贴，我真的真的好怕自己会不小心爱上你.. 现在的我虽然是和你在一起了，但是我好害怕会失去你.
有谁会明白这种感绝呢...?

2010-11-04T03:31:00.001-07:00

昨天你答应我会等我.. 我说如果要你等五年，你做得到吗你说可以...
我会记住你的承诺，而且我百分百相信你.. 别辜负我啊
我爱你 {老公}

2010-10-25T21:45:00.000-07:00

i feel just a little bit threatened. what is she trying to do by posting those pictures ._.
nvm i shall remain silent... >.<

2010-10-25T09:07:00.000-07:00

还蛮期待拜四的到来的... (:

明天晚上HG HG HG woohoooo time to partayyyye! ^^V it's gonna be a good good nighttt~ :DD

to you, even though i'm 100% sure you won't see this: iloveyou muacksss =) thanks for everything.

2010-10-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

可以自动退出吗......因为......

我不喜欢三人游..

2010-10-17T08:45:00.001-07:00

ILU BABY, always :)

2010-10-16T07:08:00.000-07:00

看到你每天做工做到那么累心好痛... x(
虽然有时你没说，但能感觉得到你的疲惫 =/
hais.

2010-10-16T03:05:00.000-07:00

hahas last night webcam with baby so funnyyyy hahaha <3 brother came in halfway to kajiao and we kept laughing like mad HAHAA.. stupid bro. >.<
webcam-ed until around 3am hahaa baby still called me after that to chit-chat lol and in the end i didn't manage to finish reading my FM chapter like what i planned to. hehs. but it's alright cos it's only that few hours that he's freee hehs.
my stupid flu is back againnnn! irritating max. friday already like that liao.. had to sleep halfway during IT sem =/ hate that feeling of keep wanting to sneeze and tear.. sighz. still haven't fully recover yet.. hope it will soon!
anyway, IT'S RECESS WEEEEEEKKK NOW woohooo :D even though got quite alot of projs and reports and catching up to do, still happy that there's a one-week break from school heees. time to catch up with my favourite people! meanwhile, i hope i can finish what i intend to do during this week so i can fully enjoy next week to the MAX HOHOHO~~~ (: (: (:

2010-10-12T23:19:00.000-07:00

12.10.10. happy first month baby (:
昨天真高兴能再见到你^^ the last time i saw you was sooo long ago, and to know that you put the heart and picture i gave you in your wallet makes me 好开心(: 只是不想让你知道罢了hehe <3
i love late night telephone calls that last 2 hours. haaaa :P

2010-10-10T10:56:00.001-07:00

1 day of not messaging you and i already feel so 不习惯 already... =/
你快快回来好不好啦.. ):
imu. hope you liked my letter. haha.

2010-10-05T17:20:00.000-07:00

你是我微笑的原因(:
ytd was so.. SHAGGG TTM la omgzz O;
went to c8 after sch to makan, then went for driving.. wasn't in a good mood cos i underperformed. yeah. shall not elaborate but was kinda pissed at myself ytd.
went back to c8 afterwards and waited for sy to end work at 8pm >< then dinner at c4.. i had the tastiest pork ramen in the world heehees ^^ mood lightened after that. then went back up to c8 vip for awhile for xy's bday celebration before i had to leave early.. damn tired la omg even until now ):

2010-10-02T22:00:00.000-07:00

我好想念你叫我傻瓜
我好想念你叫我傻婆
我好想念你叫我dear
我好想念我每晚睡觉前你都会说晚安爱你
我好想念你在地铁保护我不让我被别人占便宜
我好想念你牵着我的手紧紧的就是不肯放
我好想念你说我身上的bubblegum味很香
我好想念你吃醋时结巴的样子
我好想念你抱住我紧紧的感觉让我觉得自己是最受保护的女生
我好想念跟你打机然后你输了不服气的样子
我好想念跟你一起吃叉烧饭
我好想念跟你一起煮一大锅的快熟面
我好想念跟你一起吃火锅烧烤
我好想念跟你一起看戏的感觉
我好想念你半夜带我去吃田鸡粥
我好想念你在我流汗的时候用手帮我擦汗
我好想念你送我回家
我好想念你每天晚上在fb等我聊天就算我在睡觉也一直等我上线
我好想念你说你很爱很爱我
我好想念每次下雨的时候你都会担心我被雨淋湿
我好想念每次地铁要来的时候我们都会说'train is coming~ train is coming~'
我好想念什么事情都能跟你说跟你聊天时我什么都不用隐瞒
我好想念你打给我时听到我哭就安慰我
我好想念你打给我时就算没话说也总是不会觉得不舒服
我好想念你总是在我没给你goodnight kiss你不肯放电话
我好想念你做工是有时会突然信息我说米修米修
我好想念你~

2010-09-26T18:47:00.000-07:00

一刚开始爱情是游乐场

你和我就好像一对旋转木马

转呀转世界就越来越灿烂

我以为快乐就是那麽简单

夜很漫长音乐却那麽短

原来灯光一暗我们就得停下

慌呀慌你留下一盒爆米花

两个人的甜一个人苦苦的尝

不转了不转了不做你的木马

停在这一个曾欢笑过的地方

我还天真的以为可以地老天荒

却转阿转阿转到了天昏地暗

不转了不转了不做你的木马

幸福在最后一圈才分出真假

原来你带我来游乐场只为了好玩

我却当它是一个天堂

傻瓜, 在我的眼里你是最好的.. 我多么希望一切没那么复杂那就好了.. 我想做你的木马.. 一直都想.. 你懂吗

2010-09-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

诚实的背后是否住着伤口?
just took a jab.. it's supposed to prevent ceverix cancer.. wahseh.. there was a queue at the doc since 9plus in the morning.. i only got to take it at 11plus.. really waste my time sia.. and that pig only woke up at 11am　＠．＠　
waiting for him to come over to punggol now.. faster faster ley =(

2010-09-21T10:41:00.001-07:00

don't you just love wednesdays? (:
HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!

2010-09-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

今天很开心.. 希望永远都可以那么幸福 =)

2010-09-17T18:09:00.001-07:00

好像终于可以安心的牵着你的手了 =)
谢谢你.

2010-09-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

好怕..明明一直告诉自己要百分百相信百分百信任..可是为什么就是还怕呢...
好希望这个感觉快快消失啊..

2010-09-15T06:52:00.001-07:00

不懂也不敢也不想去想以后会是怎样.. 可是.. 我相信你.. 请让我的付出是值得的~ (:

2010-09-08T20:11:00.001-07:00

我怎么会嫌弃你呢?

2010-09-04T12:53:00.000-07:00

我感觉得到你在默默关心我.. 可是为什么我还是会犹豫呢...?
可能是没安全感.. that is what i need most.

其实我只是怕....

2010-08-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

两个人，往往会因为不了解而在一起.. 而对彼此了解才会分开..

两个人会在一起是因为一种特殊的缘分，谁都无法解释那种奇妙的感觉.. 说话时有着共同的默契.. 时时刻刻脑子里都在想着对方.. 这就是爱情的甜蜜..
但是，好事总不会长久，好景也不常在
两个人在一起的童话般甜蜜的故事曾被周围的朋友羡慕.. 没有人想过他们会有分开的一天.. 可是就是有时候在一起久了，因为太了解对方了，开始看到对方的缺点了或因某种原因开始厌倦和他在一起了.. 两人就会慢慢感情变淡.. 直到其中一方先提出分手..
分手后，那种默契就再也不再有了.. 那种微妙的缘分也消失了.. 从此，女孩再次看见男孩时的感觉无法形容.. 不能狠他，因为曾经爱过，也无法再爱他，因为两人都已分手了.. 于是，他们变成了最熟悉的陌生人，各自过着各自的生活，各自等着属于自己的白马王子或公主再次出现..
这是许多许多爱情的结局.. 太多太多人往往在拥有的时候总是不懂得珍惜.. 要等到失去后才发现原来自己最在乎的人已经不属于他们了.. 这时才来后悔又有什么用呢...???
珍惜身边爱着你的人吧.. 别把真心当做游戏...

不懂为什么突然能写出这么感性的东西勒哈哈.. 超不像我的..

2010-08-15T18:52:00.000-07:00

好久没写博客了。。最近比较忙比较忙比较忙。。。哈哈
多一下子就要去学开车了。。闲。。又要搭德士了。。就因为太贪睡。。哈哈
还在想等下要不要去染头发。。很久没有好好的宠宠自己了。
哎，马上就要开学了。。要开始收拾一下心情了。。可是就是一直有一种怪怪的感觉。。没心情读书。。可能是放假太久了吧。。现在想开始碰书就累！而且我也舍不得工作那边的同事朋友们。。

2010-08-13T09:28:00.001-07:00

very disappointed in you... so all along what you told me were lies...?

2010-08-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

flying off soon in slightly less than 8 hours! =) happy. finally i can just forget everything and fly off to another place where there are no sad memories.. but when i come back i know everything will be back to normal again. sighs.
guai guai one sia today i never work but yet have to wake up so early for driving.. hahas. so long never drive alr. the feeling is different hahaha and omgz i actually stalled 2/3 times! dammittt! >.< i really need more practice.. haha and everytime i stall or do something wrong i will go 'SHIT!'. until my instructor say 'cannot say SHIT ah! it's banned!' ROFL. so funny! hahaha! saw soo many ppl at cdc today ha ha..
now just chiong only~ ^^V
went hougang mall after driving lesson.. saw acson at the interchange there LOL WTH la he looked like he just woke up. blur blur one LOL i wasn't sure it was him anot so i didn't say hi. in the end really is him haha!
went to do cartilage piercing at DNXB.. finally i had the guts to do it.. after thinking for so so so so so long haha. surprisingly it wasn't pain at all leh.. but my friend said it will hurt after a few days. so i'm praying that my wound heals faster now xD shall try my best not to irritate the wound x)

why everytime i see you online i will have this feeling that i cannot explain. why why whyyyyyy. i want to talk to you so much but i don't know what to say. and i scared you will dao me. =( so i guess it's better to remain silent ba.. 现在我们之间已经变得越来越有礼貌. when in the past 我跟你无所不谈. 为什么会这样?
i still rmb that time you asked me not to play play cos you are serious. and you said if i was just playing around, you'll be hurt. but in the end, who was the one getting hurt? you left me speechless, i also don't know what to say.. even though it was so long ago and i tried so hard to forget everything, i can only say i can't force it out of my mind.. no matter how hard i tried to. =<

wo hen xiang hen xiang nian ni, ni dao di zhi bu zhi dao?

你应该永远都不会知道. because.. 你想的是她，对吧?

2010-08-02T02:41:00.000-07:00

ytd was such a good good night! hahaha was released from work early at 5pm =) went K7 to slack and sing song as usual, while waiting for sy haha. went 313@somerset to eat ramen play after that.. shop shop shop at forever 21.. then go back to kbox for the partayyyeeee! :D:D:D
haha at first like 8pm only got we 2.. then slowly more and more people come! play pool, sing songs and play dice. so fun haha. da xiao hei bai is so damn fun pls! but will keep drinking and drinking cos very fast loseee! :<
emptied 4 bottles of martell completely and 3 jugs of vodka cranberry? i felt so light-headed at about 3plus.. like abit tipsy le. went bar to get hot drink ><
left at 4 plus.. and forgot to pay bill hahah so had to go up again @.@ lol
kia fetch us home after that.. reached home at around 445? mum was kp again as usual sighs.
okay i shall stop here. still damn tired even though i woke up at 2.30pm lol TT

i love my c8 family :)

2010-07-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

i want you back so badly :(
but you'll never know, cos i'll never show.

2010-07-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

好久没有blog了.. well, i'm back! =)
haha today supposed to work till 7pm but not very busy and got enough staff so gq and i requested to be cut.. haha both of us work till 5pm only.. den went k7 to slack awhile.. sing abit.. after that went scape to visit awhile.. den i left first lol.
this week dunno why work like damn tiring.. i guess it's time i need to take a break and re-charge my internal battery lols.. very sian sia everyday wake up so early.. repeat the same thing everyday.. machiam robot like that ><
yay tmr after work i'll be going for a chalet at nsrcc =) woots! it will be funnnn i hope! mahjong hereee i come xD

there's alot of things to look forward to in august HAHA YAY! hk trip, drinking session with sy and gang and morning shift BBQ chalet! WOOTS. before school starts and mundane life kicks in =(

till next time, bye!

2010-07-17T09:15:00.000-07:00

wow today was so shag ttm pls... omgosh! klunch all rooms full.. so busy from morning till night.. plus something unlucky happened in the evening which made everyone so kan chiong.. hais:(
was late for work today.. by 13 min lol.. stomachache sian! >< and i overslept. by 1.5 hours HAHAAAH sheeshh >.>
5 more days to jay chou concert!! i can't wait mannn! =)

凌晨两点一个人的咖啡店
想念曾经不安分的情绪
独自走在灰色河堤你来不及带我去的场景
想着你说过要一起看夜景
车窗上的雾气旋律香水无法散去
想挽回的话语勇气还是藏进心里
无法给你那种感觉回到朋友关系
屋子里的空寂宁谧放在我的心底
遗留在记忆里
车窗上的雾气 (那灰色的)
旋律 (像你的)香水无法散去
想挽回的话语 (埋不住的)
勇气 (没想到)还是藏进心里
无法给你那种 (情人般的)
感觉 (怎麽能)回到朋友关系
屋子里的空寂 (带不走的)
宁谧 (依然还)放在我的心底
回到我们开始的旋律
音符里失去你的回忆

this song reminds me of you.. but somehow, the feeling's not there anymore. or should i say i'm too tired to care anymore...

2010-07-15T11:06:00.001-07:00

just reached home from watching movie with shuyun, chocolate and alex! haha
we wached inception, and it was nicee! :D abit like 2012, and the movie was so darn longgg! 2.5 hours! LOL! but it was so action packed that it didn't feel like it lols.
cab fare was surprisingly cheap.. 26 bucks for 4 different destinations plus midnight charges.. hehs xD
past few days keep doing OT.. chionging more hours so that can earn more $$ lols.. must fan ben from loss in WC! arghhh. i shall not bet so much anymoree zzz! regret regret.
how the fuck am i supposed to wake up at 7 tmr for medical checkup at ntu at 9.46am?! dammit. my house is in the east and i have to travel allll the way to the west!??!
tmr working 2-10 shift.. 4 functions at night OMG.. crosses my fingers hope tmr won't be too busy + shag!! T.T

i feel happy when i'm around you (:

2010-07-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

so. i was wrong. again. damn! ><

today work was soo soo shag la pls. staff shortage (nothing new here) and plus so so so many customers sia. walk in and booking like almost the same gosh O: tired ttm!
run here run dere.
today i was so dulan with a customer lah. argue with me. say what drink take so long to come.. then when i offered to give to her immed she say no need cos they going off liao. then replace with mineral water also dun want. cb lah. these kind of customers. step one big nia.. bo song dont come here sing la. nabei! T.T i was so damn pissed. in the end the captain settled the matter by agreeing to free them 2 drinks on their next visit. wtf.. so that's what you want?! cheapo sia zzzz. omg irritated ttm. my mood was spoilt by that bitch!
went home after work. dabao own dinner. so long never eat homecooked dinner liao sighs. =X

2010-07-08T11:31:00.000-07:00

okay a quick post.. today work was quite fun cos not that many customers so we were not very busy hehehh.. busy slacking all the way ^^ woooo~
ended work at 7 plus.. and met yh at foodcourt for dinner :) after that we went scape walkwalk.. went up to see the new kbox and wow... it's so damn nice! look like cck style but even bigger with many more rooms lor.. super new and nice haha.. i wonder when will it be c8's turn to look like that hees :) saw dino there too haha.
walk around scape for awhile more.. den went back to cine to watch DESPICABLE MEEEE! omg it's sooo damn funny and brainless! i like i like! the minions are like so so blardy cuteee ttm can! hahhahah :DDD pfft. IT'S SO FLUFFY I'M GONNA DIEEEEEEEEE! roars. hahas.
movie ended at ard 11pm.. trained to dhoby ghaut.. then bangla call me go supper with him and kia. so i tapped out again wth lol. went rochor rd eat tau huey and you tiao.. walao they jio me go eat in the end no money and the atm there all spoilt so i treated them zzzzz =.= lousyyyy la haha. saw ah long there also lols omg so shocked hahaha.
makan until about 12 plus.. then jiu go home liao lols.
damn shag now. lucky tonight no soccer sia. haha woo still happy from ytd's win :D
shall go zzz now alr. tmr still got workkkkk blek :P

2010-07-07T12:22:00.000-07:00

today never work weeee~
went back to school first in the afternoon to collect my a level cert and sgc and yearbook.. rj feels so different compared to the last time i was there. unfamiliar faces, unfamiliar surroundings. >< i took my stuff and immed zao alr. rushed to meet sisterhood at cine. was late for like 20 min lol. sushi buffet at sukiiii! didn't really like eat alot ley. cos the ramen made me damn full liao haha. had random stuff here and there but the sushi on the conveyor belt were nothing special so we kept ordering from the staff there lolss.
after that went up to level 8 to slack until 7 lol.. wait for that christina to end work luh. emo at k7 again hahahah it's my favourite room :) kajiao sm and her friend abit but most of the time i was just watching random mvs in my rm hehs.
boo came at 7 plus, walked around and i bought earrings! 3 pairs of mini studs lol. 90 cents each nia. damn super cheap! hahas.
den 9templessss! front part quite scary, but overall hai hao lols :) karma here karma there one. not really a brainless show, will make you think abit one lols.
went back to kbox to return my blanket aft tt, then home sweet home! (: reached home at like 11 plus. bangla and kia keep jio me go supper hahaha idiottss pig la eat eat eat haha. didnt go in the end too tired hehs.
spain v germany now. i think tmr i will have a hard time waking up! =/

i have to look away when you smile cos it blinded me so so much.
i guess status quo is good(:

2010-07-06T08:26:00.000-07:00

今天，我想你想到忘了下车。地铁到Clarke quay我才惊讶地发现自己忘记下车，结果害我差一点迟到 T.T

payday ytd! So happy haha even though i know i can't spend alot this mth as i've alr hua wei la qian last mth on jay chou's concert tix lolzzz. But still an indescribable feeling of happiness wells in me as i received my paycheck :) reward for a month's hard work heehee (:

i hate how my thoughts start to wander when i'm not doing anything.. Cos they always wander to you and i always find myself in a daze when i'm thinking of you.
Haha but when i see you smile i can't help but :) too.

2010-07-03T10:06:00.000-07:00

back to blog!~ hees. went cck kbox to sing ytd, finally not working LOLS. and saw amy and weakzai thereeee! miss them alottt when pangleejin gone nobody will say she wanna shit when she see my face hahaas. weakzai gone also no more mango pomelo liao :( hahaha but glad that they all doing well over there laas. the staff there seems nice.. all of them so polite and helpful :) although we changed room twice hahas cos they upgrading the system to jurong safra ver.. i just realised my house isnt actually thaaat far from cck lols! cos there's a direct bus to woodlands mrt hahaha then cck is only 4 stops away! ohwells. shall see again when school starts.. somehow the atmosphere there is so diff from c8 lols.. even though c8 is damn old got the very family de gan jue.. haha maybe cos i first time go cck ba.. but wow its so high class sia.. like chalet like that ><
dinner with zpei @ cck lot 1 sakaeeee. yums i ate like ALOT hahaha cos i didnt have time for lunch lols overslept. that's meeeee. for you hehs :)
train-ed and bus-ed home.. reached home at about 10 plus?? rather early (:
todayyyy back to work. haha. staff is like damn damn short.. just got a shocking news ytd from one of my colleague.. now another morning shift staff gone... :( damn sad.. is c8 dying.. it will be so so quiet in the future now that one by one they all leaving sighz.. =/ i really really really miss working full-time the first few mths when i first joined.. hais =( now left 2 full-timer server.. how are we going to cope? seriously...
but anyway.. today i already tried to reach damn early to prepare for opening and stuff. but wtheck why did it have to rain?! dampen my spirits early in the morning totally.. everytime it rains when i go work i will be scared cos i will think about the flood.. i certainly dont want something like that to happen again. really sucks.]
even though today quite alot of customers but surprisingly we managed to cope quite well i would say (: cos we multi-task and we are efficienttt! yays xD but like whole day dunno why very bu shu fu.. my stomach keep having cramps.. damn pain! >< then in the afternoon i tried to sit down and slack in the smoking room.. ask shaniel to give me one stick to smoke.. in the end wah even worse got bad headache.. so bo pian i told captain i really bth want to go home.. lucky he let me go home at 5 =)if not i think i will very xin ku sia... T.T sian max.
so shock that argentina can lose to germany by such a huge scoreline luh.. 4-0 lols.. but lucky germany win if not my money fly away liao.. damn i should have increased my stakes lols!

sometimes when you behave too nice to me i get scared. cos i don't know if im leading you on.. if i am im truly sorry.
to you: imissyoualot!

2010-07-01T12:13:00.000-07:00

these few days keep OT OT OT.. good in the sense that i can earn more $$ but also at the same time make me more shag haha.. work 10 hours again today 11-9.. cos watching movie at 9.40 then dun wanna waste time hees ^^
eclipse was okay.. love scenes much more than action scenes.. i prefer action scenes luh haha...
tomorrow finally not working haha.. BUT i still going kbox omytian lolz... just that diff branch >< tmr going cck one.. newly opened haha can't wait to see how 'high class' it is hehs :)
i appear unreceptive and unresponsive but i do care. just that i prefer to not reveal too much of my feelings. cos i like how things are like now and i don't wish to change :)

2010-06-28T14:21:00.001-07:00

weeee today im happy cos.. cos.. cos i passeddd my FTT! woohoos hahas :D i was actually quite scared luh cos i only did my e-trial test today.. like an hour before the actual test.. and i was so tired from staying up watching soccer that i totally anyhow do the e-trial tests.. and i failed 2 of them wahahas! then the session ended left like 15 min to the test then i damn scared lols.. lucky pass sia! i really dun wanna re-take lor :D
went straight to workplace after that.. today is seriously staff shortage.. but lucky not busy la hehs.. work 12-7 but time seems to pass sooo sooo slowly! like nothing to do i also very tired sia. haha i think i prefer being busy ^^ only got bangla keep di-siaoing sy and me so we 3 just keep tok cok hehe :)
tmr a friend of mine going court.. really hope everything goes fine for him! jiayou weakzai!!:)
wth la i can't believe i fell asleep for so long that i fail to wake up to my alarm lols.. when i woke up the brazil vs chile match alr at the 89th min liao kns!!! hahahaa nvr see the goals but nvm brazil won so i still win heeheeee(:
it's 5.20am now.. later 11am got work lols everyday this kind of timing wakeup my body clock really damn screwed sia lols

2010-06-27T13:44:00.001-07:00

junling is a happy girl today, cos she doesn't need to go work! :)))
haha captain called me in the morning today, but i already have plans for today weeee~
woke up quite early considering i stayed up so late the previous night to watch soccer hahas.. met marvin for lunch @ cp.. ajisen! wahahas. he's changed quite abit lol i can't believe he's even slimmer than his bro already! =.= waited for him for like half an hour? i was like a hungry ghost by the time he reached lols.. ton-toro ramen yumyummm.
oh andanddd. i finally got new headphones!! still the onto brand heh but it's the lim ed pink this time.. previous one was light pink ^^
went home after that to nua awhile till evening.. then went for dinner @ sakura charcoal grilled and shabu-shabu at punggol end.. today whole day eat jap food sia o.O but the food was not bad laa.. dessert was like about the same as kbox buffet lols...
hah so many friends complaining on fb about school reopening tmr.. heehee lucky i not schooling anymore.. for now (: so shuang everyday relac sia xD
i dono what to buy for spain vs portugal.. should i buy draw??? hmmmmm.

sometimes when i see you i really want to make convo.. but i dunno what to say.. sighs. sometimes i really dono what you thinking.. cai bu tou.. i wish we could still be like how we were in the past.. everytime di siao each other.. joke and laugh.. but i guess it's impossible right? i miss you still. alot. hais. i need more time for my wounds to heal..
will you ever see this? even if you see it, will you know that i'm talking about YOU??

2010-06-26T08:42:00.001-07:00

你送的礼物会不会太特别？

2010-06-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

i'm still alive! hehs. after work went for k-buffet with colleagues and captain.. haha it was quite fun.. really very destress.. we opened a bottle of martell also haha the crazy group was like screaming their lungs out when playing 5-10 and cheat.. lolz =.= very high but i didn't really eat alot lol no appetite =/
was happy over a random incident heh (: thanks for all my friends who are there for me these few days when i'm really down.. after some reflection, i have decided to set my priorities right and i believed i've emerged stronger =) hees.
left workplace at 11.30, just in time for last train hahas. reach home le so shag but still must chiong mugging for my FTT which is some elearning crap haha. next few days will be busy working and i dont think i will have the strength to mug after work so no choice gotta chiong tonight.. it's 430am and i just finished all 17 chapters kns.. e trial test is tmr 9 in the morning.. think i might just pon and book another slot on sun or smth heehee ^^
i like this busy-ness in my life.. keeps my mind occupied and busy so that i don't have time to thing about other stuff :)
lucky tmr working 2-7 hohoho if not i think i'll just die from shag-ness!
will blog again another time! need to catch up on lost sleep!

2010-06-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just wish i can learn to let go of everything and just don't care. but i realise that i can't. sometimes i wish i didn't meet you and i never knew you so my emotions wouldn't be so affected by your actions. but i can't. sighhh. hate to be so emo but i can't help it.
i just need time to forget you and make you disappear from my life, completely.

work is so tiring nowadays. just now i finally brought my ipod for service at wheelock center.. the guy so funny sia, suddenly talk in english suddenly talk in chinese lols. in the end my ipod is kept for 3 days for service ahaha hope i can get a one to one replacement whee~ (:

你用唇语说你要离开那难过无声慢了下来汹涌潮水你听明白不是浪而是泪海

2010-06-20T09:48:00.000-07:00

wish i could keep you much longer, now you gotta go cos you've got things to do.

today never go work, i cancelled my schedule and decided to go make a visit to the doc early in the morning hahas.. damn long never go see doc le usually i try to cure myself when i'm sick by taking random medicine.. lols.. but yeah i guess this time really quite serious my throat and plus i drag for very long alr lol.. walao turned out that my injury from the flood became infected.. no wonder my finger swell until so red sia omgosh =.= den he gave me some antibiotic cream to apply on my finger.. it looks better now haha.
hehehe i kinda like my work timing tomorrow.. 11-5 and i got the freedom to do my own stuff after work lols.. really need to make a trip down to wheelock to service my freaking ipod.. zzzzz gahh i'm damn lazy! lols. and i just realised that my FTT is like next monday omgosh so lazy to study please. i hope i don't fail it =X

sigh, should i just stop expecting something from you? please at least tell me or drop me a hint, if not i think i will just let you go. there's really no point holding on if i cannot figure out what you are thinking...

2010-06-17T10:44:00.000-07:00

sian.. these few days being feeling kind of :/
very uncertain about my future and some other stuff.. some ppl say i change alot this year.. sometimes when i think about it i wonder if it's really my work or rather the nature of my work that caused it.. idk after all it's an entertainment spot.... sighs.. this is why i don't like to be alone.. when i'm alone i think too much and make myself more and more emo only... that's why i like to keep myself as busy as possible.. i once told someone if only my life is just everyday wake up, go work, then come back too tired to do anything just straight away go sleep jiu hao le.. today one of my friend told me i'm a workaholic and i work so much that i have very little chance to meet up with my other friends.. i felt quite bad sia cos my life is only about work that i don't have time for anything else :(
i dunno la sometimes i wish i can just stay young forever and not grow up.. life is too complicated for me. sigh why can't everyone just be very good friends and there's no such thing as bgr.. i don't want to speculate but i hate it when you keep mentioning xxx but yet i can't tell you how i really feel cos i'm scared of the answer you'll give me and i think i don't even understand you. i don't think i've got the energy to keep on trying.. sometimes i listen to songs that remind me of you i have to deliberately skip them.. idk and i don't want history to repeat itself so i keep telling myself i have to be extra careful and i don't want to be hurt a second time... but sometimes i guess i just cannot help it :( it is really very hard to forget someone who gave you alot of good memories.. i hao bu rong yi slowly recover from the pain and i don't think i wanna be hurt a second time
my body is like getting weaker and weaker everyday idk why.. maybe cos of irregular meals and everything.. injured two of my fingers ytd while i was caught in the flood :( it still hurts very badly up till now sigh.. and seem to keep coughing easily these few days sian.. shouldn't have smoked so much in genting.. quite regret.. sometimes i know some of the things that i'm doing are stupid and harmful to myself but yet i still do it i dunno why.. maybe cos it helps to numb the pain i'm feeling.. my parents will never know when i just say got fan nao they will not believe.. feel like got nobody to turn to except my bro sometimes but then again, i can't tell him everything i'm feeling... i hate it when people have double expectations of me.. i'm also a human what.. so what even if i'm entering uni.. i must be some guai guai nerd and have no life ah? fuck you sia _|_

2010-06-16T10:28:00.000-07:00

i don't like it when someone can control my emotions too much. just when my heart's beginning to harden itself, don't attempt to break the shield surrounding it...

haha anyway i so won't forget how i made it to work today.. whole orchard is like some muddy river disgusting much. and my entire jeans were like SOAKED.. plus that stupid weakzai made me go all the way back to fetch him with an umbrella zzz! idiottt haha. it was totally impossible to walk across the road lols that idiot suggested taking taxi but i figured it would be impossible to alight also since the water level was at the mid-tyre level? LOLS. in the end smart me suggested training to orchard and walk the sheltered pathway from wisma to taka to cine instead haha! bloody long route but in the end never got stuck in the flood (: but still i was already wet cos before that i ghey kiang, tried to force my way across the carpark ><
worse thing was i didn't have any spare bottom so i had to stick with wearing it from 11-7 omyGAWD. >< was late for work, totally had no mood zzz..
in the midst of world cup fever.. i can't believe spain lost to switzerland zzzz! now i owe my bro a mc spicy!

2010-04-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

job interview went well today! :) thanks christina for accompanying me theree :DD hope i can get it though, keeping my fingers crossed :P being part of the unemployed really sucks, there's nothing to do except staying at home all day long stagnating :( i think i'm really a workaholic heh. but i'll only work at jobs that i like. i think i'm somebody who likes jobs that involve alot of interaction with different types of ppl, idk. somehow office jobs turn me off, even though i haven't tried working at one before =/ i guess i still haven't found my direction and purpose in life yet, all i wanna do now is have fun =)
really contemplated going back to kbox as part-time server, but ahh i guess i gotta just let go. the best things in life only become memories, and like what many people said, hao2 ma3 bu4 chi1 hui2 tou2 cao3. hahaha i think if i go back there, it would be even harder for me to quit when i enter uni.. :S
sigh. alot of things happened these few days.. i've literally been on an emotional roller coaster. but i'm fine now, and i think i've emerged stronger after this whole experience. we're still good friends, and i'm just glad that i'm able to pull myself up again. don't think you'll ever see this, but actually i wanna thank you for letting me know what love is all about, especially when you held my hands. but i guess we're both from really different worlds, maybe we're not meant to be after all. zuo hui peng you, zhen de hui shu fu xie (: i hope you'll be able to get over her soon, and find your true princess in life x) all the best~

2010-03-25T09:24:00.001-07:00

i think i really have to stop playing. soon. and think about what i wanna do with my life.
SIANNNNNNN.
suddenly thought of something my colleague said.
"ni du dao zhe yang duo shu zuo shen me?"
nono don't get me wrong. i'm not giving up on myself or anything. and i'm definitely not implying that studying is bad.
but sometimes i feel that the most important thing is being happy with what you're doing lor.
idk, maybe i'm one who's easily contented. :Z
anyway i'm really confused right now. experiencing a wave of emotions but i find it really hard to pen it here right now. shall find another outlet to vent my frustrations.

2010-03-03T17:39:00.001-08:00

yes, that day is finally coming. after schooling for almost 12 years of my entire life, it all boils down to tomorrow.
at first everything just seems so far away, but then as i get busy with work time suddenly sped up. and whoosh. tmr's a level results day.
to be honest, i don't really have thaaat high expectations of myself la, like getting a perfect score and everything. cos i lost whatever confidence i have left after econs ppr 2. ohwell. i just hope everything turns out fine tmr and i do good enough to enter the course that i want.
btt e trial test tmr too, early in the morning. what a choreeee manzzz. okay, shall get my ass off the chair and go to work now!

2010-03-01T09:30:00.000-08:00

work's been tiring, but fun nonetheless.
some customers really brighten up your day hahaha.
there was a particular room of guys, around secondary school age? they asked me to help them take a group pic with their iphone and offered me a slice of chocolate cake. then i was like no i can't take your cake and they thought i rejected it cos i was afraid of putting on weight! hahahah wthell lahhh.
and another customer bumped into me and i think she was so apologetic she said sorry to me like 12 times? hahahaha so cute. i like nice customers who appreciate your service and are understanding when sometimes you are unable to attend to their requests promptly.
on the other hand i do meet customers who are damn irritating and unreasonable too HAHAHA. super anal. room smelly, tv too small, room too small, location of room too exposed, room too bright cos of the curtains, slow service and whatnot. seriously. you pay only THAT MUCH of service charge. if you think we are unable to meet your top-notch expectations, just go somewhere else to sing LAH. we're not forcing you HAHA.

the customer is (NOT) always right!

2010-02-14T09:51:00.000-08:00

suddenly, i miss somebody whom i've never spoken to for veryyy long.
very much :(

2010-02-12T10:03:00.000-08:00

everyone has 2 sides of themselves but they will only choose to show one of it to others.
yesterday and today, i saw both sides of two different people. and my impression of them changed. alot.

P.S I AM NOT EMO OKAY

2010-02-02T09:44:00.001-08:00

and maybe everything will turn out fine after all. if only......

2010-01-24T09:26:00.000-08:00

third consecutive day of OT, bloody hell tired :<
my heels are like damn red now omgwtfbbq!
honeygreentea is damn awesomee :D:D

2010-01-20T09:57:00.000-08:00

finally BACKKK at yellow today woohooo. hahahah and i saw sylvester sim today! he was with some woman (probably his new gf or smth) but i didn't get to dai fang cos i was buying lunch for the rest ): HAHAHA but he came to ask me where the smoking room was!
hahaha i think it's cool working in the service industry cos sometimes you get to meet public figures heehee. so fun.
had aston's at the cathay after work.. it was sort of a farewell meal for chenghan and peigang. today was their last day working cos they're gonna enlist soon lol. the freaking queue sibei long and we waited like from 8plus to 9plus WTF hungry muchhhh. and my steak was soooo super tough i swear i'm NOT gonna eat aston's steak anymoreee! ): the guys' double up chicken looked so much better? hahahaha.
yeah and after that the rest of them still wanted to go play LAN wtheck. i couldn't be bothered hahaha.
am catching up on hi my sweetheart omg it's so darn amusing CHOU BU LA JI XIANG GU TOU! :D:D:D

2010-01-16T09:15:00.000-08:00

when i tried to take out my earring on the third earhole just now it was FUCKING PAIN omgosh ><
fuck this shouldn't have pierced it at bits n pieces sia. should've just listened to yy after her bad experience DAMMIT.
it's like bloody pain, literally. nabeh!
don't really feel like sleeping now leh, but there's work tmrrrrrrrrrrr hahaha. today's crowd was really mad. chenghan was like totally fried being runner of the day poor boy hahahaa.
hope i get to do yallow zone tomozzz heehee :D:DD

2010-01-12T07:24:00.000-08:00

c8 party last night totally killed everyone today.. well almost. when we all went to work this morning the whole freaking place stank of alcohol and vomit smell.. YUCKS. lol jonathan and captain pennie damn zai never sleep at all HAHAHAA. when he went to sleep in 61 for awhile in the afternoon we all spammed air freshener HAHAHAHA super funny la. work was damn slack today for me at least, HAHA but definitely not the guys cos they all had to clean up the place. and poor bar boy finished washing all the wine glasses and cups only at like 3pm lololol. conclusion? staff party shouldn't have been at freaking 3am in the morning. cos it'll only kill all the morning staff the next day :/ the entire place was grossed out to the max but luckily it's now clean already :)
can't wait for off day on thursday sia. FREEDOM AWAITS!

2010-01-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

time passed rather slowly today during work HAHAHA but walao eh, first time i was so freaking busy at green zone -.- it's usually like the slackest zone LOL.
hahah after work captain thompson and zhou wei went kpool to pit their skills against each other, and we all tagged along. zw totally got pwned hands down OMG hahaha. either he was off form or captain thompson too pro alr. i believe it's more of the latter though HAHAHA gosh. kowtows.
waited for jonathan and cx who were made to do OT last minute -.- then had dinner at botak jones. at like 9 plus WTH sia. and thompson treated all of us to drinks woohooo xD
chatted with a few of my colleagues on the way home while taking the train tgt. and i realised the people you meet at work are really really a world apart from those friends you see everyday in school. like their perspectives and everything. i guess it's mainly cos they have more experience. like, she4 hui4 jing1 yan4, whatever you call it. but yeah. not everyone's like who they appear to be. i learnt not to be so gullible and trusting, and that it's always safe to go according to your gut feelings sometimes and not just follow everything by the book.
yupyup, am feeling abit shagged now. goodbye, world.

2010-01-06T07:01:00.000-08:00

boredom is really getting to me. everyday is like wake up, go work, come home, eat, slack, use comp, sleep, repeat. yawns. okay at least my life has a fixed routine unlike post As, when everyday feels the same and i wake up at least after 11am. (HAHAHA) the only saving grace that i can actually think of now is that work isn't exactly as tiring as i thought it would turn out to be, i have strange colleagues whom i think would be better off being comedians instead hahahaha.
can't wait for japan trip! seriously. i hope they let me take unpaid leave thoughhhhh sighz. work totally kills off all my other plans manxzzz.
on a totally different note, i wanna take my BTT ASAP lehhh!! gosh. but i'm too lazy to read the freaking green book, even though it's so damn thin HAHAHA. if it was last year i would've gladly savoured it within hours. BUT HEY NOW IT'S POST A LEVELS, i seriously think my brain is degenerating even when i'm working sia HAHA. like if you ask me to do an integration qn now or smth i doubt i can do it HAH.
KAY am feeling a lil' tired. shall catch up on sleepppp

2010-01-03T12:07:00.000-08:00

okay i've decided to restore my blog back cos i need an outlet to vent my frustrations. hahahaha nah i just feel like blogging cos i can't sleep ><
HAHAHA my bro's being a total ASS in my room. he claims that he can't sleep cos 'school's starting'. wtf srsly. it's so fun to mock at the people who are going to school tomorrow. TEEHEEHEE i still have around 7 more months of freedom (Y)
tomorrow (or rather, today, since it's alr 4 plus in the morning) is like my first off day from work. HAHA WTH can't believe i've just worked continuously for 7 days. SHAGGED SIA. but it's quite fun actually. made quite a lot of new friends, people who are fun to be with and people who don't start their intro by asking 'what school are you from?' totally pisses me off man. then the convo will be something like 'wah, u're from *JC ah? not bad! next time sure be blah blah blah..' ah c'mon, gimme a break please. now that i've finally graduated and needless to say, stripped of my rafflesian status, i really DO feel so much free-er. not that i don't like my school though, i just don't like the general social attitude towards us. yeah.
anyway i think my chinese is like improving cos i am totally speaking mandarin during work. like ALL THE TIME HAHAHAHA. although sometimes i still can't understand what the china people are saying, cos of their accent and all. takes time getting used to i guess...
YAY tomorrow's off will definitely be WELL SPENT! HAHAHA i totally need to stock up on stuff. like a new belt! hahaha.
it's 4.19am now and i still don't feel like sleeping yet idk what else to bs about. shall go play poker kthxbai.

2009-12-18T06:31:00.000-08:00

Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnnnn, downnnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Downnnnn, downnnnn
Ooohhh (ohhh)

You oughta know,
Tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show,
I wanna see how you lose control,
So leave it behind, cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely,
Even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,

Just let it be,
Come on and bring your body next to me,
I'll take you away, hey,
Turn this place into our private getaway,
So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,
(So why don't we run away)

Baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely,
Even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature,
Cause to me she too raw degree,
She crawl all over things,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,
I can't help be her souljah pleaser,
I'm fighting for this girl,
I'm in battlefield love,
Don't it look like baby cupid sent his arrows from above,
Don't you ever leave the side of me, indefinitely, now probably,
And honestly get down like that, be proud of me, yeahhh

Baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely,
Even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down, ohh

(The sky is falling down)

*i am no longer part of the unemployed!

2009-12-03T12:59:00.000-08:00

YESSSSSSSSSS I AM BACKKKKKK! WOOHOOOOOO~
can't believe i could actually survive without blogging for ONE WHOLE MONTH. haha. anyway many many things have happened during this period, and i doubt i'll ever forget them. it's just too... unforgettable.
like.
the A LEVELS ECONS MASSACRE. whoaaaa. O: i don't think i'll ever wanna touch anything econs-related againnnn. feels so much like ss in secondary school haha. no matter how much passion i try to force myself to have for that subject and allocate the most time for studying it, i don't seem to be able to perform well:/
anyway, it's all over, and whatever's done is already done, so there's no room for any regrets. can't believe 2 years of JC education is over just like that, didn't really have time to fully enjoy it haha.. time flies
anyway, these 2 years of raffles education has really been an eye-opener for me. it's like a love-hate r/s; you like the friends that you've made, but yet the ever intense competition and constant struggle to achieve excellence in academic pursuits sometimes make me doubt if it was a right choice choosing to come into RJ. but i guess afterall i've survived JC life, and i'll definitely cherish all the friendships that i've made there :)
today was the last day of A levels. had bio mcq paper. yet i don't really feel ecstatic like how i thought i would feel when the last paper ends. perhaps it's because i've already been starting to slack since the end of econs ppr1 hehh.
anyway, these few days of post A LEVELS are gonna be really hectic, with all the gatherings/chalets/holiday trips starting to fill up my schedule, i guess i'll only be able to fully rest and start learning stuff that i've wanted to learn for a long time only after i come back from tw. hahaa.
will stop for now. i need to continue watching YOU'RE BEAUTIFULLL. it's a really nice and funny korean drama. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED HAHA :D

2009-11-02T10:54:00.001-08:00

JUNLING WILL BE BACKKKK ON DEC THE THIRD! BYEEEEE! <3<3<3

2009-10-31T06:04:00.000-07:00

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

beautiful song, beautiful voice :) if you sing that for me, i will melt HAHAHA.

life's been a bore, now we are entering the stressful phase. a couple more hours we've reached the ONE-WEEK COUNTDOWN. i consider myself rather optimistic, since i only start to countdown 7 days before the actual thing, unlike some people who spend a few minutes staring at the calenday everyday.. :P
random places at cp and the school lib have become my second home, and i hope i can press on until everything ends.
the outcome of 2 years of JC life lies in these 2 months.
jiayou people, be a fighter, not a quitter!
:D

2009-10-29T11:01:00.000-07:00

:)
最近都流行粉紫色
最新最潮的都有了
为什么富有了什么都不缺了
简单地快乐会不见了
为生活忙碌的跑着
为爱情又被伤害了
当所有变复杂变难懂变苦涩
你流的泪水是不是真的
能不能回到最初最自然最灿烂的笑容
没有钻石的爱情我也会被感动
让自己放空恢复漂亮的脸孔
你吻我一下脸就红
就回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
伴着摩天轮别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的拍拖
全都出现在今夜的美梦

为生活忙碌的跑着
为爱情又被伤害了
看自己变复杂变自私以后
简单的快乐怎么不见了
能不能回到最初最自然最灿烂的笑容
没有钻石的爱情我也会被感动
让自己放空恢复漂亮的脸孔
你吻我一下脸就红
就回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
伴着摩天轮别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的拍拖
全都出现在今夜的美梦
能不能回到最初的感动

能不能回到最初棉花糖在手中的笑容
钻石换不了爱情的心动
让自己放轻松
什么都能想通
说爱你爱我脸就红
回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
伴着摩天轮别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的拍拖
全都出现在今夜的美梦
回到最初再也梦不到的梦

2009-10-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

i keep saying the f word at the slightest things nowadays. what's wrong with me man :S

2009-10-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

OHMYOHMY.
it's 1.28am as of now, and i AM still not asleep, YET! ):
and i've to be in school like 6 and a half hours later and continue mugging RAWRRRRZ. (actually i don't have to, i just WANT to)
life sucks, yet i keep telling myself to push on, cause i just don't wanna see the same thing as O's happen again. like what happened to my bio and physics. true, some may say that i'm just bloody ingrateful for my results, but whatever. i don't know, perhaps i should stop aiming so bloody high and end up disappointed at not being able to achieve the grades that i so badly want to get. BUT, it's only natural to aim for all As since you've already gone so far, right? i mean like, since i've already decided and took the first (BRAVE) step to put RJC as my first choice, might as well make the best out of it, no?
SO.
YESS. i will continue to hardcore for the remaining 2/3 weeks (i hate counting down so i'll just give a VERY vague figure) and totally forget the meaning of life. and after everything ends a month later or so, i have 8 FRICKIN MONTHS OF FREEDOM woohoo~ while the poor guys have to really start becoming a MAN (Y) ahh yes.
mugging at the airport today was fun, as usual. the good thing about mugging there is
1. you can mug for as long as you want, cos airport's open like 24-7, and the starbucks at terminal 2 is DAMN GOOD for revision cos nobody freaking cares if you buy a frappe/mocha and plop your ass there for 10 straight hours. YEAH, IT'S THAATTT GOOD YO'.
2. superrr super CLEAN and nice toilets (WORLD-CLASS)
aaand lastly,
3. got water cooler so you can leave like one quarter of ur coffee on the table and just drink plain water for the next few hours if you decide that you wanna study for reeeallllyyyyy long *smirks*
OK im damn jian HEH HEHHH.
yup. but of course, you gotta pay a price for it. as in LITERALLY. the stuff sold there are usually kinda over-priced so you may just burn a HUGE hole in your pocket if you keep studying there non-stop for a month O:
anyway i'm damn tired. will revisit my blog when i next feel like it. which may not be so soon i think :D

2009-10-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

alamak. i just reached home and saw the neat pile of books on my shelf. then i realised with shock that i actually have 2 math tys! :O as in the yearly one la. just that one's from 1997-2006 and the other's 1999-2008. GOSH. so yeah anyway the 1999-2008 one is like still UNTOUCHED. so i would be most glad and willing to sell to anyone who wants to buy it :) HEH HEH. it's 5.20, tell me if you want it kay! not much time left! T.T
kay time to start studying for H3. TOMORROW. i must. i can. i WILL.

2009-10-18T07:26:00.000-07:00

跑过快红灯的路口
我们大笑着一起回头
不用刻意做些什么
两颗心就会漫出来快乐
想起来怎么像梦
小的美好大的感动
是过了多少个秋冬
沦为夏天的电影只能重播怀旧
我们是两颗会痛的石头
猛烈冲撞后裂了缝
永远都不会懂
什么叫认错
还想爱却调头放手
心疼你是颗会痛的石头
想要抱住却混乱沉默
倔强的表情里
闪过了失落
你的泪让我痛
我的浪漫太不及格
你猜中却还配合没说
想做支歌记录你我
写三句身旁你的眼红了

2009-10-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

my life is all about mugging, scramble and poker now. how sad :(:(
mugged from ten to ten in school today.. the fricking dinner queue was SOOO BLOODY HELL long that i decided to just buy cup noodles from 7-11 and instead -.- SIGH DROP MORE HAIR >< >< ><
my fingers feel as if they're gonna drop out anytime soon O:

2009-10-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

okay i finally got back all my papers. lots of shock (both good and bad ones) but obviously the bad ones were way more than the good ones..
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really DISPLEASED with my chem results.
on hindsight, i guess i was too complacent maybe? lack of effort SIGHZ.
when bio is saved (somewhat considering the grade jump), another subject just HAS to be compromised..
anyway, finished watching he's just not that into you ytd in the library with yh. not too bad, but not too good either. i kind of expected more haha, considering how nice a little too not over you sounds. used to go crazy over that awhile ago heh.

perhaps a miracle would happen so that i can magically score straight As for the A levels. sometimes i wonder if this was also how the previous batch felt. like, was getting an A in rj thaaat difficult during their time too? then when A level comes everyone just suddenly turned into imbas or something. still, guess i shouldn't place any bets on that la. afterall, success comes with hard work (yeah damn cliche, whatever)

2009-10-05T01:21:00.000-07:00

prelim results sucked. i don't dare to face my chem grades tmr SIGH.
the only consoling thing maybe, is that my bio jumped 3 grades. still not thaaat good either.
sian, think i have to buck up alr!

2009-10-04T07:08:00.001-07:00

i woke up at 12pm today just in time for lunch at some restaurant in yck grassroots club. it's gim tim i think. nice food :D damn full after that HAHA.
went amkhub afterwards. daddy bought me a new hp HAHAHAHA. (Y) thanks man. now both dian wei and i are using samsung phones :D heh. mine's samsung jet. kinda still not used to it yet, but whatever. my n73 is friggin' old. HAHAHA.
went pasir ris park after that and cycled for a few hours. haven't been there for quite awhile.. and omg i really sweated like, ALOT. haha. fun evening.
went to a daddy's friend's bbq party afterwards, at like 7 plus at tampines area. the baby was damn CUTEEEEE! ahahaha :D one month old heh. :D dw and i were damn fascinated at the seesaws and swings there LOL. drizzled a little, but otherwise all was fun :)
gosh tmr getting back most of the papersssss. KILL ME PLS :O

2009-10-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

is that all there is to jc life? 2 years just flew by like that? i don't believe it.. 30 odd days to A's, and yet i don't seem to feel thaaat motivated yet. perhaps cos everyone's still mugging for SAT/other random tests, idk. somehow the drive's not there yet. will find it soon.
going out for a nice lunch tomoz. can't wait. im finally going out on a sunday.

2009-10-01T09:34:00.001-07:00

Name: toh junling
Date: 10/1/2009
Colorgenics Number: 56341270

You are tired of the various 'ups' and 'downs' of life at this time. If only you could win a lottery - or better still, be the heir to a large inheritance which would allow you to afford a life of absolute luxury. This day dreaming will shortly pass and whether you like it or not, sooner or later you will have to face reality.

You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.

WOW. the description was.. SCARILY TRUE!
anyway, cool psychology test.
www.goldinuniverse.com
try it:)

2009-09-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

omg i didn't feel the tremours today. HAHAH apparently it was real bad. HEH anyway i never felt tremours BEFORE in my entire life, is that suaku or what lollll.
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anyway, kbox was good! a refreshing song list. HAHAHAHAAHAHAAH.
shizz i don't want friday to come lahhhhh :(

2009-09-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

GOSH my feet are killin me nowwwww! ):
shopped from like 11 plus till 7 plus. HAHA. but okay it was fruitful la cos. i bought HELL LOT of stuff (Y) spent close to 200 bucks :/ but my itouch is like.. refurbished! so YAYY :D
and omg i was THAAAAT CLOSE to buying that damn bloody nice green dress from warehouse! it was... SUPER NICE OKAYYYY GODDDD :O but it costs 219 so ARGH. SCREW IT. 129 i confirm buy immed la ><
yeah okay anyway. needa rest my poor soul and pour over some random mindless videos.
KBOX TMR WOOHOOOOO xD

2009-09-26T09:56:00.000-07:00

mugged h3 at starbucks for 7 hours straight today. hahaha actually not really straight lah, minus the time i kept going to the toilet and walking about. so erm yeah. and anyway 7 is not a really EPIC number to begin with.. ><
i feel super super unprepared for monday. and scared. i don't want it to comeeee omg. i can totally imagine myself staring at the paper and just go EFF. :X
i guess i never really put in much effort for this paper.
somehow, i just feel... inadequate.

2009-09-25T05:42:00.000-07:00

bio mcq paper today. it was rather okay (i THINK).
went to ion orchard for the FIRST TIME. HAHAHA omg we felt damn suaku there lah! like damn long never go shopping already hahaha. went to itacho sushi for lunch, at inez's recommendation. it was nice! :) i like the rice it's like sweet. heh :)
walked around after that. HAHAHA and we noticed that the number of people got lesser and lesser as we went higher up. cos the shops were getting more and more high end. luxury goods lol. saw this faber-castell set of colour pencils that costs 1500 bucks. WTS. comes tgt with this huge pretty mahogany box i think which kind of justified the price i guess. BUT it's totally like a collector's item please, i wouldn't even bear to use it la haha. oh and the toilet's quite nice (HAHAHAHAHAHA)
decided to catch a movie after that. caught the ugly truth at the cathay. OMG the movie's hilarious. but it's like, sick humour lah LOL. i think i'd prefer a PG movie, anytime! HAHA and this is like my second chick flick i watched this year. no actually third i think. shopaholic, 17 again and this. HAHAH oh and damn funny we all didnt know the movie was nc until the ushed requested for our ids T.T then sun was like 'huh what show are we watching!' HAHAH. the show's nice anyhow, rather predictable ending though. BUT SWEEEET :D
i'm starting to feel the guilt pangs coming now. for slacking the whole afternoon away. but ohwell, i really NEEDED this break. i don't have the stamina to mug for one whole month, and hmm. i think i should set my standards lower for pharm chem, since i'm reading some of the notes for the first time in my life. SO. uh.
good luck to me. (GG)

:(

2009-09-24T01:01:00.000-07:00

bio paper 3 was okay. let's just hope that i can get a decent grade HAHA. paper 2 totally screwed me up lah ><
OH and paper 1 chem was like..?! WTF la. seriously. it was just a mad rush all the way, and i just shaded option c for all those that i couldnt do. HAHAHA.
the general sentiment was that its even harder than bio paper 3 HAHA zomg. T.T BOOOO.
second last paper tmr. bio mcq.
mousehunt rocks. i got my abominable snow mouse. YAY.

2009-09-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

5 more papers! i want all of these to end ASAP! ):

just give me one more chance to make this right.

2009-09-19T20:33:00.000-07:00

never though i would say this, but i actually MISS guitar pract. :(
HAHA though i admit i was really kinda slack when i was in j1, especially when i was still in JE, and a couple of occasions when i was in the ME and practice sessions on wednesday had to clash with rc meetings >< compromise la. HAHAHA oh oh! and loooong toilet breaks where we eventually ended up at hodge lodge/canteen for AWHILE before going back HAHAHA (sheesh i don't think kevin would ever see this right!).
HAHAHA and the sudden increase in the number of group dinners after pract every monday HAHAHAH from s-11 to subway to MOS to MOS to MOS and then to MOS (again HAHA). yup kinda miss those times, when all you had to worry bout were only like SPA (yes, ONLY!) and all the common tutorial tests/lecture tests that didn't really matter, come to think of it. its like '*GASP* i got this test and that test and mock spa and bla this week, DAMN i got no time to mug for it! but still got time for guitar dinner la' HAHHHAA.
oh and not forgetting the sudden flood of motivational/inspirational speeches righttt before SYF, concert and all the rehearsals. HAHAHAH and hiok's 'OMG i think i smile alot during this pract!' lol. classic hahahahaa. and the time when all of us actually congregated outside pizza hut the night before SYF and listen to kevin's ALL-INSPIRING SPEECH. 'whatever award we get tomorrow, we'll always know that deep down, we've already obtained the GWH!'
and and. kevin's constant turn-his-head-around-and-stare-at-either-me-or-pris action cos either one of our guitar's out of tune! HAHAHAHAH omg. horrors lol. pris was so terrified of him HEHEHE.
will never ever forget how me and pris came to be in the first row (due to obvious reasons) during pract, and had to be riggght under the watchful eyes of Mr Gaspar. we had to suppress our laughter everytime we go for pract cos Mr Gaspar was justt way TOO FUNNY! hahahaha 'ytd i watched this video on THE TUBE' and 'i think cartoons are very nice to get inspiration!' HAHA wtte la. damn funny can. and sometimes i had to fight very hard not to fall asleep when his mini pep talks become boringgg HAHAHA.
hahaha yeah and all the practs and sectionals! HAHAH how we kept getting confused with the beat for cordoba halfway through, and jon gan had to like conduct with BOTH his hands and his feet! HAHAHAHAH super funny.
yeah. there's actually so much more that i wanna type but i feel quite incoherent now. and not as if many people will read this HAHAHA so. aye nvm. BACCCCK to cystic fibrosis :(

2009-09-19T01:43:00.000-07:00

i can't remember when was the last time i talked to you.

sigh. how time flies huh.

2009-09-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

'i wanna hold you till i die, till be both break down and cry'

sweet lyrics eh? i'm officially hooked on the song. it's called 'sometimes when we touch', by Dan Hill. The Olivia Ong's version's in my playlist, but i think i still prefer the original one, it's classic! (Y)(Y)

2009-09-18T03:31:00.000-07:00

YAY finally no more ECONS! ehh at least for now, the next time i touch it won't be too soon HEEHEE (Y)
omg there's a reason why i hate arts subjects like history/lit/geog/econs.
cos' they make ur palms go red and trembling after each paper. and time NEVER seemed enough for arts papers. hmmmm.
or maybe this's just the common perspective from science students. HMM.
idk. i'm just not.. ARTSY FARTSY. HAHAHAHA!
ONE MORE WEEK PLUS ONE DAY MORE till everything ends. period. cool I WILL PRESS ON I WILL PERSEVERE I WILL NOT GIVE UPPPPP!

and yet the weariness inside of me begs so much to be let out.
i will take a good break after prelims end, i promise.

2009-09-15T23:04:00.000-07:00

chem paper 3 WAS hard! :(
anyone who thinks its's like damn bloody easy, SCREW YOU MAN.
k la i think it's time management prob actually. SO.
it's still DB hard!
:/:/

2009-09-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

FUCK bio papers NEVER FAIL to make me feel screwed and give up all hope after that. >:( DAMN SIAN i studied so hard for it (okay maybe more like, i dedicated the MOST time to it), but yet it's still so damn bloody hard.
AND
my time management SUCKS TTM.
nuff' said.
back to CHEM!

2009-09-14T07:04:00.001-07:00

I AM GG TO HAVE SUBWAY LUNCH TMR AFTER BIO PAPER!

2009-09-10T21:59:00.001-07:00

50 days, and still counting ):

2009-09-09T07:51:00.000-07:00

FUCK MY LIFE! >:(

fuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkkkkkk all this shit ARGH!

on top of all that mugging shit, i missed my period for this month! (F again!)

shit i feel damn angsty now. just don't bother tyvm.

**edit**
OH i went to research (HAHAH k laugh all you want), and hmm..

10 Reasons Your Period is Late (from http://pregnancy.about.com/od/amipregnant/a/missedperiod.htm)

1. Stress
Stress can affect many things in our lives, including our periods. Sometimes we're so stressed out that our body decreases the amount of a hormone (GnRH), which causes us to not ovulate or menstruate. Working with your doctor or midwife can help you figure out what you need to do to relax and get back on schedule.

2. Illness
A sudden, short illness or even a longer illness can cause your periods to be delayed. This is usually temporary.

3. Change in Schedules
Changing schedules can really throw off your body clock. This is particularly true if you go from days to nights at work or vice versa.

4. Change in Medications
Perhaps you're trying a new medication and a delayed or absent period is the cause. Be sure to talk to your doctor or midwife about this side effect. It is very common with some methods of birth control.

5. Being Overweight
Carrying around too much weight can hormonally shift your cycles and even stop them. Most women will see a return to normal cycles and fertility with the loss of some weight.

6. Being Underweight
If you do not have enough body fat you will not have regular periods, sometimes you can eve cause your periods to stop all together. This is called amenorrhea. Typically a weight gain will help you have your periods return. This is a frequent cause of a missed period in women who work out to an extreme or are professional athletes.

7. Miscalculation
The menstrual cycle varies from woman to woman. While we say that the average menstrual cycle is 28 days long, that is not true for everyone. Sometimes our period is believed to be late when in all actuality we have simply miscalculated. If you have irregular menstrual cycles, but know when you ovulate, look for your period about two weeks after you ovulate. That may help you keep an easier track of your periods.

8. Peri-Menopause
Peri-menopause is the period of time where you are transitioning from reproductive age to a non-reproductive age. Your periods may be lighter, heavier, more frequent or less frequent - but mostly just not normal. If you do not wish to get pregnant, be sure to continue to use birth control because you are likely to still be fertile at least some of the time.

9. Menopause
Menopause is when you have reached the point in your life where you will no longer ovulate or menstruate. Menopause can be a natural life event or may happen surgically through hysterectomy or through chemical such as chemotherapies.

10. Pregnancy
Finally! Yes, your missed period might be because you're pregnant! A simple pregnancy test can usually help you determine if you have missed your period because you are pregnant. The urine pregnancy tests and blood pregnancy tests look for the hormone hCG.

i'm suspecting it's mainly cos of 1 & 3. AM NOCTURNAL
and i'm definitely no having menopause WTF.

2009-09-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

i think i'm obsessed with mousehunt, LOL! i have no idea why's that, i used to think that it's a retarded game on fb that's a total waste of your time. HAHAHA imagine camping in front of your comp for the entire day and sounding the horn every 15 minutes, trying to collect all 135 breeds of mice loll. and now i'm actually playing it myself wtheck. aiyah, this just goes to show that i'm so bored of mugging that anything, even the smallest of things, could actually shift my attention away from mugging. oops :P
kay back to bacteria. Escherichia Coli FTW :D

2009-09-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

zomg i finally touched the piano! like since what, forever.
whoohooooo the feeling's great. just that one of my fingernails is currently longer than the rest (shan't say which one), so when i play there's this clicking sound HAHAHA O:
uhhh okay it's a beautiful morning. and a brand new day for mugging awaits. (Y)

2009-09-05T05:20:00.000-07:00

I WANNA GO PRAWNINGGGGG!!

hahahaha random.
OMGZ BIO IS KILLING MEEEEEE

2009-09-03T06:50:00.000-07:00

oh finally, a short breather. the next paper will commence more than one week later (Y)
meanwhile, i finally found all my bio notes, from jc1 till now. counted the number of topics that im gonna have to mug for paper 2, and it's freaking 21/22 topics! (can't rmb too many alr) WHAT THE SHIT MAN. srsly T.T

don't even have the time to touch pharm chem SIANZ.
happy mugging people! :):)

p/s: econs paper was EPIC(hard) today [macro case study efffffff]

2009-08-29T02:55:00.000-07:00

WHY IS ECONS NEVERENDING I HAVENT EVEN START MUGGING FOR GEEPEE OMG :O:O